It's been a long time. Life has kept me busy...the usual mix of awesome, mediocre and ick. Today I am entering my 34th trip around the sun. The last year has included time and energy spent trying to find what parts of myself to nurture, and what parts of myself to let go. With the letting go comes an attempt at forgiveness for what was, what I needed to do at that time in my life to keep going, and release those parts that aren't serving my life or me anymore. It's a small step every moment, but I'm trying.
Today, and this birthday weekend, it's come easy. Eyes wide open to see this life I've made...this family..this partnership..this beautiful place I've chosen to live in. Doing the things I need to do to keep these eyes open to it and keep showing up with all parts of myself. It really is simple: eat, drink, hike, beach, meditate, reflect, laugh, play, kids, choosing love every time. Repeat.
Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. One day I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want, more than all the world, your return. --Mary Jean Iron